Me? Lucky? No…
“I don’t get why all these things happen to you.” “”What do you mean?” “You know. You just must be a lucky person.” Really? The last time I checked, I pay taxes, take my clothes to a dingy laundromat, and still haven’t won the lottery. I think if I were lucky, I would be the...
Don’t Forget to Blink
“I think there’s something wrong with her eyes.” My mother glanced over at me, her cool blue eyes meeting my wild green, before she turned her attention back to the handsome optometrist. “They get really dry and then she just cries. She’s not upset or anything, she just cries.” As the oldest daughter and one...
Saying Sorry Isn’t Enough
So I had this amazing post about apologies written. You haven’t seen it yet. But you would have loved it. I was working on it late Sunday night. Beautiful stuff. Something kept me from pressing the publish button though. It didn’t seem like it was just quite there. The heart was missing. It was like...
I Meant Well
Story of my life. For all my talk of lovingkindness, I can be quite the jerk. It seems like I’m always having to apologize to someone. Not because they demand it. But because I can’t stand to see how my actions have affected them. The irony is that I’m not the cruelest when I...
Sushi Revisited
Two years ago, when I was a much different person, I wrote about sushi and being a fake. I talked about how it was easy to slip a persona on and be a character without staying true to your own. It’s still true now. I have a feeling that it will always be true, no...
Makeup + Medications + Me
For as long as I can remember, I’ve had this fear. Of being ugly. First it was the battle of chicklet teeth. Then the horrible hair era. But just when it was getting oh so good, it took a turn for the worst. I was eighteen when I started getting acne. I did everything I could...
Sometimes…
Instead of writing anything incredibly deep or moving, I decided to finish sentences. It’s easy to get caught up in what I think is the right answer, the one that I’m so sure will provide the magic answer and make everything better. Like a spell to make sure “happily ever after” happens in the lives...
Being Spread Thin is Not Sexy: What I Learned This Summer
School is back in session. The cop car sitting outside the local high school reminds me of this, enforcing the 30 mph speed limit in a nice stretch of road that could easily be a 50 mph section. Driving past the school this morning, I watched the long line of cars waiting to turn into...
Silence is Golden
This is one of the rare Sundays that I’m not off on a country drive through the Hill Country, paddleboarding adventure on the lake, or hanging out with friends. In a stroke of solitude, I canceled them all. My soul craves silence today. After a week of epic car trouble, smoky concerts, crossing things off...
